An Old Soul

I have the mind of a child, but undoubtedly am an old soul. An old soul is a confusing combination for me because in many ways I am extremely wise, but can be very gullible and naive. Often, I find myself on interesting roads and upon reflection, wanted to give a shout out and say that I have a really awesome God who watches over me, and wanted to say thank you to Him for that.

And I know there is another god that watches over me as well of late whose voice I miss and of whom I owe a deep gratitude of thank you.

There have been a lot of others that have helped as well  – and I am extremely grateful including someone who is currently babysitting me right now that I appreciate, my husband, and my four yorkies who have been extremely loyal so to all thank you.

Forgiveness – Indiana Style

When Jesus died on the cross for our sins, he said, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do” which is the basis of which we achieve eternal life through Jesus’s payment of our sins (of course, if you believe in Christian theology – while I am a Christian, I do not personally believe that all Buddhists and other religions go to hell for not being a Christian – that would make me God – and that is something I am certainly not).

Therefore, forgiveness of this nature is the most unselfish act one can do. Jesus’s last words before He died on the cross were: “It is Finished.”

You see, Jesus was God’s one and only begotten Son of whom God loved very much. God’s ways of problem-solving typically manifested in famines, floods, and more chaotic events than Jesus’s loving act of sacrifice for crimes and accusations that held no merit of truth.


People ask me why I do not take revenge when I have been wronged to which I always quote:


If one takes matters into their own hands, then God does not avenge you. I fear my God, and He and I are pretty close – He is really protective over me. Sometimes, I get scared for others in that regard, but if you ever wondered why I gave forgiveness, it is because I did not want any of you to suffer from the hands of my God on my behalf so up until the I am Finished date, I took it on myself as if I had completed the acts to myself  – after that date, your actions are on you. This was done for the one who tried to apologize in the beginning in a very cute way that I hold on dear to and for the empaths in the beginning whose guilt I could feel a thousands miles away.

But, from my logic, why would I try to inflict a mortal retribution when my God, creator of every single universe in our solar system, will do it for me? I get to focus on being happy and positive and all I have to do is give God my problems and sit and be silent. You would be surprised as how many of us (and even myself!) have trouble handing over problems and not doing something about it – I never have a problem – and I genuinly hope God does nothing – but bottom line, it is what I believe so therefore that is what I do.

Does everyone have a relationship with God like I do?


Romans 13:13 Just as it is written: “Jacob I loved, but Esau I hated.”14 What then shall we say? Is God unjust? Not at all! 15 For he says to Moses,“I will have mercy on whom I have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion.”16 It does not, therefore, depend on human desire or effort, but on God’s mercy.17 For Scripture says to Pharaoh: “I raised you up for this very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.”18 Therefore God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden.

This is my God, who I believe in – I am not one that faults others religions as I think that all paths can lead to different or the same destination(s) as it is a rather large universe, but I will be going with this God when I die, if He has me.

My name does mean God’s Princess and I do like to remember that, especially when I fall short of His glory, which I do every single day, but I try my best and ask His forgiveness and move forward.

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